lil by lil

Little by little I am learning to move away.
Its hard , its still hard.
I still miss you so much.
That when I see you I can't think of anything else.
But what can I do ?
I am like chasing the end of a rainbow.
I can't grab you, all I can do is just watch and listen to your present story.

#31. Fuck you.

FIRST OF ALL, YOU ARE BEING FUCKING UNFAIR NOWADAYS. Since when the fuck have you been like this. It's always Jordan Jordan Jordan. Wherever he wants to go, HE CAN FUCKING GO. But when it comes to me it's like, "why do you have to go out all the time" and "why do I always have to fetch you everywhere". SINCE WHEN THE FUCK HAVE YOU FETCHED ME EVERYWHERE. FOR MOST OF THE TIMES I WENT OUT, MY FRIENDS FUCKING GAVE ME A RIDE. But when Jordan wants a ride to somewhere, YOU GLADLY FETCH HIM AND HIS FRIENDS TO WHEREVER HE WANTS TO GO.

EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS MY FAULT. When I say you're being unfair, you say you're not. But the fact is, you fucking are. you don't yell at Jordan or lecture him about going out. WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO FAIRNESS?

IF HE'S THE FAVOURITE, I'D GLADLY FUCKING MOVE OUT OF YOUR FUCKING HOME. IF THAT IS WHAT YOU WANT. YOU'VE BEEN PISSING ME OFF SO MUCH LATELY. AND IT HAS COME TO THE POINT WHERE I WOULDN'T EVEN MIND NOT TALKING TO YOU. BECAUSE WHEN I TALK TO YOU, I GET PISSED OFF.

I love you and everything, but sometimes you just fucking piss me off.

#30. This is fubar.

I kinda miss M.
I don't know why.